I sit here at five in the morning on Christmas day, alone. I guess to some I should be feeling sorry for myself or be feeling lonely. Instead, I had such a joy in my soul that I had to share it.
I was here just thanking God for all that He has done for me, from salvation straight down to this feeling of contentment. I feel this overwhelming feeling of joy!
Hey! I am happy. God continues to give me all that I need, when I need it, how I need it. Memories of my past life do not make me sad, but grateful. I have good memories and bad, but, my life, me, my mindset, is in a different place, I am happy and contented, and excited and hopeful and peaceful.
I went to bed before eight last night, my home smelling of febreeze and freshly made homemade bread. No, (I didn’t fuss with the house and stuff, I contracted out tasks…) I baked the bread to go with the ham my aunt baked for me and my cleaned house was courtesy a friend.
I fuss less about things since my husband died and my children are grown. I focus on my peace of mind and my mental health, if those things were not done, I would still be joyful now. It’s all about my soul, my peace of mind.
I truly understand what Paul meant when he said that he has learnt in all things to be content.
I have had so many ups and downs in my life, so many disappointments, so for me to feel this kind of joy at this time of my life, can only be God, and it’s the best gift I’ve ever had!
May this new year bring you to a place in God where you can be contented in whatever place you are in and may the joy of the Lord be your strength.
Lorraine Anthon-Bynoe
2024
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